Could it be? Is that two lines I see?
Today has been an AWESOME day! God showed up and He's totally SHOWED OUT today! THEN Bruce and I decide to go out to eat and afterwards we stop by Rite Aid and buy 2 pregnancy tests. I was going to wait until in the morning because first morning is the best but I couldn't wait that long so I tested tonight and for the first time in 29 months I saw those beautiful two lines. One was very faint and I thought I was seeing things but Bruce confirmed that he saw it too, but he thought it was too light to count. However, I've been on a message board for TTC for years and we all know that "A LINE IS A LINE" so I'm holding onto that and I'll test with a digital in the morning. I hope this happiness is not short lived because we are beyond escatic!
Bruce's reaction: He started smiling ear to ear but I could tell he was cautiously optimistic because of the faintness of the line. When I asked him if he was excited, he responded with "Yes, just nervous very very nervous. A baby changes everything. I just want to be a good Daddy".
Jodi's reaction: I was smiling from ear to ear also and I couldn't help but scream a little and jump around a little plus I raised my hands and thanked God for this miracle! I'm honestly SO excited and nervous too! I KNOW this is going to be an exciting journey and I'm so thankful I get to share it with the love of my life, my best friend, and the greatest husband in the world, Bruce.
I'm honestly just too excited to have coherent thoughts. I'm so thankful. God has truly blessed me and He deserves all of the praise! He is AWESOME period!
Little bean: I don't know who you are or who you'll grow up to be but I want you to know that you have two parents who want you and that have prayed for you for years. Always know that you are wanted more than anything in this world and that you are truly a blessing from God. The road was difficult and I've spent a lot of time wondering "Why me?" and I've shed a lot of tears, but I know YOU are the answer to all of the "Why me's?" and YOU areworth every tear I've ever shed. I don't even know you nor have I seen your heartbeat or image on a screen, as a matter of fact the only proof of your existence is a faint line but I already love you more than words can describe and I'm so proud that God chose me to be your mama! I can't wait to meet you in 36 weeks and 2 days!
AND THE NEXT MORNING...
BFP!!!!
I never thought I would type those letters and I'm still in disbelief!!!! Even after this:
12 dpo FMU
Now I'm just praying for a perfectly healthy baby that will make his or her big debut around June 9th, 2011! WOOHOO!!!!!
**I can't believe it has been over a year since I found out I was going to be a Mama. I can still remember the excitement I felt in that moment and reading the words I wrote brings me right back to it. I could not have imagined the joy, happiness, and just plain fun she brings into my life. It is unreal. I now understand why you can't fathom the love you'll have for your child because the anticipation and waiting period would be almost unbearable. It is crazy to think that it took 3 years from the initial "let's have a baby" to "we have a baby", but I can honestly say that SHE is worth the wait. She truly is the answer to all of the "Why's?" and she is definitely worth every tear I ever shed. If you're in that place of waiting of wanting, just know that the reward is much bigger and better and so much worth all of the waiting and wanting.
Much Love,
JB
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