Basically, my feelings of being a bad mom stem from "if I don't do everything for my child" I'm a bad mom and with such a helpful husband I feel as if I don't even even pull my share of doing 1/2 of everything for my child. Don't get me wrong, I'm very thankful for my helpful husband and I really do realize how helpful he is just by observing other dads, but sometimes I feel as if people view me as a "lazy mom or sorry mom" if they see Bruce changing a diaper, holding her, playing with her. It really is a sad way to look at things instead of being thankful for such an awesome helpmate, I'm feeling inadequate as a mom.
Many moms would give anything for their husbands to help as much as Bruce helps me. I am truly thankful for him and his help because honestly I couldn't do this by myself. My emotions, my anxiety would make me loose my marbles if I had to do everything but at the same time I feel inadequate for not doing everything. It is a double edged sword.
My goal is to no longer feel inadequate when Bruce helps out with EA because he's not helping out because I can't do it, he's helping because he WANTS to. He reminded me this morning that he also waited for two years to have a child and he wants to do everything he can for her. I am blessed beyond measure.
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