Life is Hard

It seems as if once I get a handle on this thing we call life, life throws another wrench and dagblameit I have to get a new handle. Lots of things outside of my control are going on RIGHT NOW and I hate not being in control.

Not being in control, makes me hyperventilate, my stomach churn, my neck hurt, my heart race, my stress levels increase, my patience decrease (which is very very bad considering I don't have much to being with), BUT there's nothing I can do but trust God.

Trusting God should be easy. The birds do it, I should to. However, it is hard. He has never left me nor forsaken me and I've never went hungry. He's answered prayer after prayer and yet it is still hard for me to trust COMPLETELY in HIM. Why? I have no idea. I think it is hard for me to trust in general. It is hard for me to rely on someone other than myself. I have this unhealthy thought that I can do it all myself and that is like the biggest lie ever.

This is a time to put all of my TRUST in HIM, rely SOLELY on HIM, and quit thinking I can do it by myself because I am NOTHING without GOD.

Whew, I needed to write that. Thanks for reading.

Here are some pictures of my sweet EA playing with my makeup while I get ready. She loves playing with the brushes! I think I may have a girly girl on my hands. :-)